The One Left Behind

Assalamualaikum wr wbt and Good Day people!

"We are the one, the one who left behind"

Dammit, that is sooo me. Hi peeps, it's me again. I've been a degree student for a year now. Been living in a 3 different rented apartment for 3 semesters. Been changing housemates for 3 semesters though.

Living my life as a degree student, I always get myself busy with the assignments, projects and others related to my studies. But what I can tell you that, "Too much work and no play makes Jack a dull person". sometimes, it could drives you crazy.

My life revolves around my campus and my rented apartment. Sometimes, I went to places in Samarahan mainly the groceries shop or coffee shop. Quite boring, I can tell you. I am from Kuching, therefore I am the Kuching people. And yet, I rarely go out and see the town. My bad :(

Even those who come from town away from Kuching get to hang out around Kuching town every weekend!

It is very stressful for me to know that I have always being the on who left out in the group. My housemates, they often get to hang out with their close friends and classmates leaving me behind, alone in my lonely apartment. Do you have any idea how frustrating and devastating I am being alone in the apartment while thinking about all the fun that my housemates were having? Sometimes, I felt that it is very unfair. Why?

UiTM. If I were not at UiTM, I'll be at my apartment. If not in my apartment, I'll be at UiTM. Boring life. It's not that I hate being at home or UiTM, it's just that I really need some time for myself, time for me to relax my mind. Frankly speaking, I get jealous to see my friends get to hang out with their classmates and friends. Who wouldn't get jealous anyway? Seeing them having fun while you by your own being terribly distress for being left alone. Plus, you've been staring at the same books for the past 3 months without even a single glance at other stuff?

I don't think that I do have some close friends. My so-called-besftgirlfriends, my so-called-goodfriends and etc. What a life.

Guess this is what God made for me. God is prohibiting me from having fun. Perhaps I should be a nun then.


Wasalam.